For the past few months I've found myself in this toxic mix of a "rut" and a "funk" when it comes to EVE Online. I think the catalyst was the act of me getting hung up on my corp joining Brick Squad. It tainted my game play experience so much that I stopped enjoying my game play experience. After a few weeks of being bummed and moping about it; I came to a simple conclusion.
I was being Stupid.
My eyes narrow slightly at my computer screen as I read those words, but yea. I was being stupid. I really enjoy playing EVE Online. I really enjoy my corp and my corp mates. I really enjoy PvP. Who the fuck are they to taint that for me? No. Screw that noise.
As soon as I said that to myself the most wonderful thing happened. It was unexpected and even a little shocking. It's also the most logical progression events and a welcome relief. That's right folks. When I let it go, I started having a good time again. Who would have thought?
The catalyst for this "Letting It Go" was going back to the very thing that lured me in to EVE Online in the first place. The ships! I remember the first ship I ever saw. It was a Daredevil. If the sleek and sexy body style wasn't enough, the thing is a speed demon on top of it. I was absolutely enchanted by it and my friend had been using them a lot as a low sec pirate so he did an excellent job of selling me on all it's stats.
That ship put some kind of spell on me. It's supple curves accented with the dangerous tips of its wings sparks a visual pleasure for me. There's an edge about that ship. The design alone makes the resounding statement of; I will fuck your shit up. When I saw that ship I knew I had to fly it. I knew it would be something that would eventually be in my collection. That hasn't quiet happened yet due to be being forever broke, but... one day. That's how it all started though and that's where I went to rekindle that spark.
Recently I've gone from not being able to fly jack shit, to being able to fly more ships than I know what to do with. I should note that when I say "I can fly" I mean with proper fits as well. So I decided to do a little window shopping on EVE MON with my fitting room on EFT soon to overflow. I spent time looking at Lokis Rapiers, Scimitars, Munins and Vagabonds. Rapiers got the most attention tonight since my mates were discussing fits in corp chat. I was shocked that I was able to fly it and immediately started asking questions.
I wanted to know everything about this ship and I'm lucky that I have corp mates that are experienced and that want to see my succeed in PvP. I'm pretty sure most would be quick to call my questions out as being noobish, but I am a noob. I asked about price, fits, if being able to fit a covert cyno was really necessary, how does it compare with the Huginn and its missile bonus' etc, etc. That lead to Kenndo asking me if I was coming or not.
That's something about Wrecking Shots that I really love. There usually something going on most nights. If it's not an Alliance Op, we're going a corp op or a roam. Then of course, some nights are "Bear Nights" as we call them as everyone needs to make their ISK. Tonight was no exception and off we went towards a pipe leading to the Y-2ANO area looking for a little bit of fun.
Tonight we were doing new style of tactic. The idea is internet spaceships, but Guerilla Warfare Style. Nanos and Cloaks create a dangerous combination for stragglers that aren't on their toes and plenty of killmails for me. After one night, I'm still fairly new with the method of operation and my dictor performance was mediocre at best. I made a couple of big mistakes, but the FC was cool about it. This particular FC is great like that and I've always enjoyed his fleets and learned a lot from them. I'm sold on the new tactic and I can't wait to get back out there again.
I ended the night with four solid kills and there were six for the entire night. It's not much, but it's not bad for two hours of camping. We only had one loss and that was to Incursion rats, ugh. More importantly, I think I found my flame again.